||[Dec. 29th, 2006|11:35 am]
I really must say that I had an amazing Christmas, me and Cole both. I had been so wroried that his first Chrsitmas wouldn't be as good as I wanted, but I should have figured that Bam would take care of us. I'm still awe struck by it. He gave Cole so many different things to play with and a new crib that is so beautiful and sturdy. He sleeps really well in it now too, which is good he's no longer as restless as he had been in the old one, it was safe but it was kind of creaky and old. One that Kim had lent me from maybe her baby days? I'm not sure where she aquired it. |
Bam got me this necklace, and it's really not just any..it's this one that I have had an eye on for awhile now, it's so beautiful I almost feel like I don't fit in with it. Even though it is a perfect fit, and something as little as that boosts my confidence a notch or so. He also gave me a credit card, a fucking card with no virtual limit and a bill I don't have to pay. I didn't know what to say, because he knows that I needed help pretty badly, he's perceptive enough, because I try not to seem like it was getting hard. I'll of course only use it when I have to, but this means I know for sure Cole will have the things that he needs. We are also going to end up with a kitten after they are born, and I'm honestly pretty excited about it. Cole loves watching the cats around Bam's house paly, he'll giggle and watch them for hours, that's what he did on Christmas, just watched the cats scurry about and giggle.
Ava showed Cole how to open presents (even if just yet we had to help him open them of course) she did a good job though, and she played with her cousin and seemed happy about it. I guess they're really only two years and some change apart, so once Cole is old enough to run around and play, I'm sure it will be great.
I wanted to get Bam the perfect present, and I thought about it for the longest time before picking up two silver bangles decorated with the egyptian sign for life, the ankh and the other with the symbol for love universally, written in a bunch of different languages. On the inside of that one it's engraved to daddy love Cole. On the one with the ankh it simply reads 'With Love, Missy'. It's silly to most people, I'm sure but those bracelets that Bam wears usually comfort me. When we were together I could tell when he was home, or what he was doing by thejingeling of the bracelets. Either madly writing or arguining on the phone, even brushing his teeth. It became the sound of not being alone, really. He gave me one which I wear almost all of the time, If I'm not wearing it, then Cole is playing with it because he loves them too. We also baked a huge batch of Christmas cookies and decorated them to look like crazy cartoon versions of all of us.
I'm starting to get a bunch of phone calls asking about 'Bam's unholy union', and I tend to cringe. A wedding themed show for Bam and I, and I think this might actually happen. I don't know how, but mtv is pushing it so hard that now I'm just confused.