| Welcome to the black parade |
[Jan. 8th, 2007|11:55 am] |
I can laugh at myself just as much as everyone else can, and I can take a joke. Just look at me. I opt to say a girl parading around in a wedding dress is pretty fucking pathetic, at least when she's not even the slightest bit taken. I don't even think I had any regulars at 15 North who come to request me, other then sicko little Bam twelve year olds who want to know what it's like. I told them to 'Fuck off and grow up' and of course, I lost my job over it. I'd dealt with it for at least twenty times that month, one last time, I just..snapped. So, anyway, most everyone knows about this show now, and there's no harm in showing the pictures I guess, for once I got to see them first since Bam wasn't home to sign for the package or something. I have his set too, Though I'll make someone else hand them off. That's just embarassing "Here oh sweet Ex boyfriend-father of-my-kid these are the pictures of us pretending we are in love so that MTV doesn't destroy your life" In this photo I was telling myself over and over 'This is just an acting job'
Bam looked as beautiful as always though, even if you could tell he didn't want to be doing this. He did nice in picking out his clothes, they didn't have to come in halfway and tell him what he had to wear like they did with me. I was giving them a hard time, I suppose. Come on? Didn't they expect it. The black roses were a nice touch. Is this a wedding or a funeral? Funeral of hearts?
This is the stupidest one, I think. The first solo pictures of Bam and I they made him lift me up. I hate being lifted anyway, not to mention by someone who doesn't want to be here holding me much at all. There they are...there's much more but these are the only ones that we even look remotly motivated to have this show in. Bam flew out to be with his real lover. It's by far the most humiliating thing of my life. I mean, maybe if we were both single it would be okay, maybe if I wasn't tearing myself apart and open for the corporations, it would have been fine. Anything but this. How did they want me to mock what should be eventually the best day of my life? If they're trying to destroy me, they're doing a great job. I've lost my job, my dignity, and my ability to think clearly all in one week. I feel like I should give myself a pat on the back.
We live inside a plastic plan..
Like I said, I tryed out all sorts of different white gowns that were kinda okay. They decided that I was too much of a whore to pull off white or something and they popped me in the black dress. How appropriate.
I'm off to put in applications and take Cole to the doctor's for his check up. |
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From: (Anonymous)
2007-03-16 02:31 pm (UTC)
Britny Rambles about Missy's Rambles | (Link)
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Wow. If I thought I was confused before I'm definatley confused now.
I didn't know any of this.
I watch Bam's Unholy Union on MTV and I love it. But what I didn't know was that it's all lies. You two just look so happy and it looks so...real.
But why do you do the show if you two aren't really together...or if your not really married. I'm beyond confused. So your NOT in love with each other? Your NOT together? Your NOT the madly happy couple you seem to be?
If so that sux...because I wanted it to be that way. It's not often when I find something that I can actually look forward to. But I found your show and I liked it from the get-go. Why are you faking it? Why can't it be real? Why isn't it real? I've been watching the show and today I go surfing the net and find this blog. A big shocker I must say. I know it's none of my business but what happened? And you said you didn't say Cole was Bam's because you didn't want to ruin his rep. How would that ruin his rep. I know he's in the public eye and all but it's his CHILD. Someone he made and he should be able to love him like he deserves. He should WANT to. Does he? Bam seems like such a nice person. Is that all an act too?
I think your really cool Missy and you don't deserve to be treated that way. For some odd reason I feel like your being taken advantage of. Why?
From: (Anonymous)
2007-04-08 07:11 pm (UTC)
Re: Britny Rambles about Missy's Rambles | (Link)
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dude are you seriously believing this? this is not the real missy margera writing this. there are so many things wrong with it. its impossible to fake that show. i know its MTV 'reality' but still. come on. this is a fake blog by someone who isnt missy margera. | |
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